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2:48 p.m. - Wednesday, Jul. 13, 2005 But, one thing for sure, when I am in 50-50 situations, I would rather consult my parents and just go on with whatever they said. Yeah, people might say that I have no determination, no integrity and whatever.. but as a muslim I strongly believe in the blessing of parents. No parents in this world who want their child to get into trouble, everybody wants the best, right? So, I felt very comfortable afterwards, no matter how bad, how good and no matter what people around might say, I dun give a damn. I dun care if I it happened that the decision resulted a bad outcome, as long I can feel the blessing and the sense of security with my parents around. I wont ask for more and will never regret. But, there are some moments that I will completely follow my intuition. My heart will know exactly what kind of matters that need consultation and which one needs to be done solely on my own discretion. Sometimes, the decisions are clearly not the good ones but I will ignore any external influence even from my parents, that’s the bad part. Just imagine, quit from a prestigious boarding secondary school, walked away from a good university just because I didn’t want to attend medic course as instructed by my mum. Bad huh? Yeah, those are my strong intuition, but nothing to regret of… nope.. actually a bit lah, the part that I had let my parents’ feeling down. If I had a choice, I wont do that but what to do… Now, my parents are already aware about that bad attitude, but not alwiz maaa.. a few time only, no big deal huh? So, they already understand what to do when it comes to such situations. Waste your time talking to this girl if she had already made up her mind. Just like the recent case. I had decided to quit my training in HR. But I didn’t mention it to my boss yet. But sure I will voice it out sooner or later, maybe after the PTD result. I don’t want people to presume that I quit because of the over-confidence of getting PTD. It is absolutely not the reason behind it. No matter I got the PTD or not, I will step out from HR. People may look at me as a fool, who waste the opportunities to be promoted to higher position. They have nothing to do with the outcome of my decisions, so they shouldn’t bother actually. I have my own reasons, very concrete, and had considered so many aspects. Once again, I follow my intuition. I did tell my parents about it and seems they have no objection at all, shocked maybe, but will support me no matter what decision I made. Hehehe.. look, they are really understanding right? But I do not know what is truly in their mind, probably they just want to comfort me? Entahlah. Actually, this idea had came into my mind since a long time but I dare not to take any serious on that. See.. our 1st thought is always the best, right? That’s what I called intuition, plus some depth considerations; it will become a very good solution. I am ever ready with anything come on my way. I wont look back, Insya Allah.
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