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4:16 p.m. - Thursday, Feb. 24, 2005 Uhuhu.. very very hard to find a free time when i can sit with nobody interrupt, happily jotting a few words in this beloved blog. Eheheh.. dah sibuklah skrg. New system nak kena launch 1st March, with no more parallel conventional method like the one we are using now. Looking at the staff behaviour since the time i put the new system there, i knew that i can not wait for more time. They are not taking it seriously, coz they realized that the old system is still running in parallel. I did some discussion with my collegues in Admin (which is going to officially be my staff soon hehehe..) and we decide that we need to take back the old system earlier which is going to be tomorrow. We want to monitor how the thing is going on. So, everybody got no choice but to completely use the new system. Kalau tak tu, derang buat selamba badak zoo mak bapak derang jer main2. So, if the result of the monitoring shown some flaws and problems, we still have a necessary time to fix it before 100 percent being used in March. I told my big boss about dis plan and she had no problem and leave it to me to do whatever appropriate. I believe that the fact that i will be promoted to lead HR is no more a P & C matters coz a lof people already know about it. And they did not know it from me, but the news was spreaded by somebody else. Aku mmg tak kasi tau orang, selagi menda ni belum ada hitam dan putih wlupun aku dah start buat kerja2 HR, tanpa melupakan tugas2 lama hehe.. Bukannya apa, aku takut malu plak muka aku klu tetiba tak jadi plak. Pergh.. mcm2 feedback yg aku dpt. Yg pasti, bos aku yg skrg ni cam wat bodoh jer, mcm tak tau apa2 walhal, of coz he knew it already since a long time ago. Orang lain dlm dept aku skrg ni pun rasanya tak tau. Org dlm admin pun ramai yg tak tau jugak. Orang luar, i mean orang production plak yg mcm tau sangat2. Lagi kelako, smpi tahap mcm derang lagi tau dr aku yg tuan punya diri. Yg paling aku menyampah adalah reaction from the recent Admin Exec. Mula dah mengada2, manja2 plak, eee.. smpi geli geleman plak aku ngan pe'el dia. Sib baiklah dia ni bakal jadi colleague aku, so tpaksa lah aku bsabar psl mmg nk kena deal ngan dia hari2. Kalau tak, jgn harap aku nk bagi muka. Dan aku rasa dia mmg sengaja buat mcm tu, mungkin nak uji aku. Dia tau aku takkan marah. Dan mungkin jugak dlm hati dia tgh hot psl tetiba aku yg dari luar ni bleh masuk dlm dept dia. Seolah2 mcm nak potong jalan dia utk jadi bos Admin. I do not know what to say. Tapi dari cara dia cakap mcm underestimate me. Aku taulah aku ni bukan dari HR background dan masih muda. Dia buat mcmlah aku ni bodoh sgt, tak tau pe'el orang kilang ni walhal aku masuk kerja kat kilang ni lagi awal dari dia. Geram tu ada jugak. Tapi aku skrg betul2 kena belajar lebih2 bersabar. Aku takkan terikut2 dengan cara dia. Aku akan tetap dgn pendirian dan cara aku selagi aku rasa aku betul. Biarlah dia nak kata apa pun. Biler dpt tanggungjawab baru ni, i suddenly feel very responsible to my job. Probably becoz of before this, i need to deal with machine but now i need to deal with human. And dealing with people will definitely need more commitment and kena berhati2 selalu. Arghhh.. rasa mcm besar sgt tanggungjawab ni. Tetiba rasa insaf sangat. Aku takut aku tak terpikul tanggungjawab yang besar. Sebab tu aku tetiba insaf yg aku perlu ikhlas dan betulkan niat setiap kali pergi kerja. Aku perlu ikhlas niat kerja sbg ibadah kerana Allah supaya kerja aku lebih diberkati dan sentiasa mendapat petunjuk Allah. Itulah yg sangat2 aku perlukan sekarang supaya tak sesat memilih langkah. Tak der sapa yg dpt tolong aku lagi. Huaaaa.. sedihnya.. Ok, nak kemas, nak balik.. tata
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